Searching
But I can’t seem to find, the missing piece of my aching soul.
I’m not sure if it is a feeling or a place that I long to be,
But I can tell you for sure, it’s missing in me
I let my mind wander
I let my body sleep
I let my inside heal
but still my heart weeps…
Pump The Break
If I don’t I might crash.
I’m able to see how good you and I would be together, so I want to drive full speed right towards it. But I’m not taking in account your views on the matter. So I need to pump my breaks…
From where I currently sit
I struggle.
I struggle with the fact that you are so far away. I don’t know how to handle that. My heart aches for something my body has never had.
How do I deal with that?
Most nights I dream of you. I want you for my own. I understand your worth in relation to me. I understand how we would fit together But it’s not enough.
I’ll go to bed tonight and still be in the same place I was before I closed my eyes. So what’s the point? Why is your friendship so important to me?? Why am I able to love on multi levels? Not just sexual but loving another persons soul. Their genetic make up. Their grace. I’m able to love parts that they don’t even see in themselves.
I’m different. I’m dealing. I’m alone. I’m without you. And you have no clue as to how much you mean to me…
Because I wrote this about you. And you most likely forgot who I am.
Real
Sometimes it’s hard to pick the real from the fake.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t see the good in everyone.
Sometimes I wish things were different.
But they’re not.
About me
I've got nothing to do, and nothing like you left to lose.Jump in my soul and swim around. <3
